Single

Two days ago i officially broke up with the guy that gave me herpes. I told him that he had stopped calling me & hardly texted. He said that he was “indifferent” towards our relationship, so instead of me wasting my time i decided to end things. I felt relieved because he wasn’t putting in as much effort as i was & it was really bothering me. But now that I’m laying here in my bed I can’t stop crying.. all i can think about is who is going to want me ? I’m going to be alone forever. I’m in college & the boys here are so stupid when it comes to STDs i won’t be able to trust anyone. I have a fear that my ex will find someone before i do & I’ll just be alone for the rest of my life. I feel like i should’ve held onto him even if he didn’t care for me because at least i know i would’ve had someone but at the same time i still hate him for what he gave me. I just want to be a regular college girl & go on regular dates without the thought that, “this isn’t gonna last after i tell him” lingering in the back of my head. I would do anything to cure myself & be me again.