MY little Girl💜

I have debated on posting... I didn’t know what reactions I would get and I new I wasn’t going to be ready for some comments, but here it goes. My daughter was born with Down Syndrome. I am 21 and my husband is 22. Just got married March 3rd, 4 months pregnant. We didn’t know she rocked the extra chromosome until I had her. My husband walked out right after they told us. He since has apologized for it several times and has stood by my side. She is 8 weeks old this week. I honestly am still struggling, really really bad. With everything... she also has ventricular septal defect and her PDA is not closed... she doesn’t eat as much as she should so it is causing her to not gain weight. The pediatrician thinks it is her heart holding her back from eating as much as she needs to at this point. She is still in newborn diapers and clothes. She was born at 37 weeks and was in the NICU for 2 weeks. I had my gallbladder removed 2 weeks after she was born, a couple days after she came home. I have a pretty bad case of PPD. I am on Zoloft, I don’t think it is working. I am going to see a counselor Wednesday to get help with the medicine and learn how to control the depression and anxiety that comes with it. I just started back work last week. My husbands family is being a little too much to handle sometimes... I am so over whelmed. I truly didn’t feel love for my daughter until 6 weeks pp. I am ashamed of that and I wish I could take it back. I am trying my hardest to make things right with the way I feel towards her bc when I get those moments of love for her I am so overwhelmed with joy and love! It is the best feeling ever and I wish I had it before now. This is my favorite picture of her. 💜 Meet Penelope Eileen💜