I don’t want to admit this to myself

I was sexually harassed a couple weeks ago when I was drunk. I told him I wouldn’t have sex with him but he still did it. I gave in because I didn’t know how to handle the situation. He wore a condom at first but took it off without me knowing he did so. I acted like i liked it hoping he would finish quicker. It hurt so fucking bad. I kept telling him to stop but he was pushing me into other positions and it was still hurting like crazy. Now, I am scared he got me pregnant and I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to admit that this happened and that he hurt me. I’m so scared and alone and confused. I feel like it’s my fault for not handling the situation better but I just didn’t know what to do. I’m terrified of what happened and if he got me pregnant. I don’t know what to do with myself.