I’m terrified to be a parent

When I’m older ( currently 16 ) I’ve always wanted to be a mom. I love kids, I work well with them, and I take good care of them too. I just am nervous about having a child.. my parents have been abusive towards me ( physically, verbally, and emotionally) and I know I have some type of anxiety because I’m always anxious, I know I have a fear of men because I tense when ones close to me and I can’t look them in the eye, and I feel like I have a type of PTSD because of the abuse.. it doesn’t happen too frequently but it’s been going on for 9 years. I feel like I’ll turn out like my parents..