Small rant...I guess...Frustrated and ttc

So me and my lover are ttc and I’ve started using preseed but the times I’ve used it he did not come...but when I don’t he comes quicker...I thought it would help but now I just don’t know. I’ve been probably driving him crazy about ttc...but idk...took a pregnancy test like a week ago because I had bleeding but it was just my period four days early. Kinda wondering if we will ever conceive. I’ve been so down since taking the pregnancy test...which was negative....wondering if I should just give up....