SO ANGRY

I don’t know if this is the right group to post this kind of thing but I’m going to do it here anyway because I have no one and I have to get it out.

You ever get so pissed off you just break down and cry!? That’s me right now.

To start off, my husband and I are ttc and I didn’t realize how difficult it is. You have to know exactly the right time, but make sure you hit it dead on when you ovulate but maybe not right when because sperm can live for a couple days so maybe day before and the day of and the day after but you can’t have too much sex, but don’t have too little sex, and make sure you don’t use any type of lube except what wont kill off sperm. Blah blah blah. So there is stress about that.

We already have a two year old boy who says no to me all the time. I pour my heart and soul into him only to have him treat me so poorly. It seriously breaks my heart. I know it’s just a phase but damn.

Here is what is actually pissing me off. My husband and I are in the process of building an extension onto our house. He is constantly having his dad, brother, and even his mom over here to help. Well one of the problems is it’s my project!!! I should be the one out there helping build. But instead, I’m inside taking care of my son. Anytime I try taking him outside to be out there to lend a hand on MY project, they say he is just in the way. Ok I get that. He is two. So it’s time to put him to bed and I go out to lend a hand and they have me racking leaves and holding a tape measure......are you kidding me. I feel like the only reason I’m kept around to wash the dishes, do the laundry, and take care of our son. I have told my husband day after day that “I want to lend a hand on our project tonight” “hey let me know what I can do to help” and every time I get put to do shit jobs that mean nothing. I’m sick of feeling like a toddler that doesn’t get to help. But when do I get to put an honest effort into this project and feel the “we did it. We did an awesome job and I love it and wouldn’t want to share this with anyone” moment instead of the “cool you and your family did a good job. Thanks”