It’s about a week before my wedding, which is something that I’ve been planning for two years now and have been dreaming about for even longer. But I wish my fiancé and I had just eloped and held a small reception. We don’t have nearly enough saved up and we’re having to sell my car because of it and my fiancé can’t drive his car because of an issue with the title. We’re probably going to be down to a car that we’re borrowing from family. And on top of all of this, my dress isn’t done being altered, the ring bearers don’t have pillows to carry, and the ceremony hasn’t been planned at all because the officiant can only meet when my fiancé is working or he’s out of town for the second damn weekend in a row. The ceremony rehearsal isn’t scheduled and since one of my bridesmaids lives in a different state, she needs to know in advance when it’s going to be. And after all of this is figured out and the wedding is done, we need to find money for the closing costs for our house. My own family points the finger at me because I haven’t worked for 4 months, and my fiancé gets pissy when I buy essentials for either the apartment or the wedding.

I really needed to get this out. I had an emotional breakdown a few hours ago because everything seems to be on my shoulders even though it’s not just me that’s getting married.