Have another baby or holiday

My beautiful girl is 6 months old and my feelings are so conflicting with having another baby. One minute I'm so excited to be saving for a holiday to surprise my husband and daughter with next year (going to cost 6 grand), we'd be going shortly after my daughter turns 2 and I didn't want to have an infant or be heavilly pregnant. Then the next minute I see posts on here with positive pregnancy tests and pregnant bellies and all of sudden I want to hop on the baby train! 😂 I have no idea why I'm writing the post. Just wanted to say the struggle is real.