Unsure if it’s PPD

First I should write that I have my son’s doctor appointment on Monday. It always includes time to review my own mental health with his doctor.

So lately I’ve been very out of sorts. I’m usually very positive and upbeat but lately it’s been very much the reverse. I haven’t been crying and I’m not feeling sad. I feel bored, tired, and I’ve been looking at life in a weird way. I absolutely do not have suicidal thoughts, but lately I have been contemplating life. I feel like my mind is going crazy because I’ve never wondered the purpose of life...I just lived.

Idk if it’s PPD or maybe it’s just boredom from being a SAHM to a 19mo and 4mo while being away from family and friends in a new state.

Has anyone had similar thoughts and emotions?