First pregnancy exam, first exam ever

Kodiea

I have severe anxiety and depression. This started before the pregnancy, and it’s only gotten worse. Before hand Zoloft was tried and made things worse, not going for that route again. I don’t find much joy in leaving the house and rather not be out in public or around people. Having people touching me is something I can’t handle either, sometimes even if I’m having a panic attack and my SO is trying to support and comfort me I may instantly push him away a few times before realizing he’s there to help. The real problem is, I have never had an exam because I have always been scared... and now because of the pregnancy I will need a few exams in a couple weeks. I have no idea how to make myself ok enough to do this... anyone else struggling have ideas on how to handle this? I’m 9 weeks going on 10 here in a couple days, my exam is 10/02 and I just want to make sure I’ll be healthy for this baby. 🐣