Hot mess.

Im pregnant with another mans baby and I’m still in love with my ex bf who is also the father of my child. We were together for years and I never got over him, and today he admitted we would’ve still been together if I didn’t fuck things up by getting knocked up again by someone else. I miss him so much I feel like such and idiot. We are still great friends, I still have a feeling we will end up growing old together maybe not now but one day... I told him this and he didn’t deny it, i just wish he would’ve fought harder for me like i did for him. My first love and now my lost love. I wish I could turn back time, I’m just going to leave it in God’s hands now. If he ends up with someone else it will break my heart but if he’s happy then i will do my best to be happy for him because that’s what a person does when you truly love someone.