I've calculated it and if I O on time for the rest of the year my OH won't be here for any of my fertile days!

this month he went to try and get leave, nope ship is busy that day, so I thought ah okay ill get a hotel nope ship isn't even around meaning neither is he, and even on the one day this year where my O does turn up on a weekend, his ship might be away again!!

getting stressed out about it, I don't even know if I can have kids anyway due to stupid adenomyosis, doctors can't give me any answers without taking my uterus and cutting it open apparently and this just isn't helping with my paranoia about it.

sorry I needed to have a bit of a rant!