My first time

Hello!

So I’m going to talk about the first time I had sex. Feel free to share your story as well.

I was in 8th grade when I lost my virginity. It all started when I was at a friend’s house with a couple other friends. We were playing “seven minutes in heaven” and I was alone with this guy. We started kissing, cause I guess we had nothing else to do. Note that he wasn’t my first kiss.

I really didn’t have feelings for him, nor did I expect anything more from him. It was just a game. Later that night, he texted me saying how he really liked kissing me and how he would like to do it again.

The least I can say is that I was shook.

So shook that I was just staring blankly at my phone, not knowing what to answer. I told him how I didn’t really want any relationship with him and that I personally preferred casual sex over relationships at that time. He took it personally and thought I said “I want to have sex with you”. Which I didn’t, not that I minded, I just didn’t expect him to take it that way. He then asked me if we could be fuck friends.

I answered that we could probably be sex friends, but I just didn’t know when it would happen or when we would have alone time for that. A few days later, I ended up telling him this whole fwb thing wouldn’t work, cause first of all, we never had alone time and second of all, I was just fucking stressed out about it. I mean, who wouldn’t be?

A few months later, we were at the end of the year and the final exams were approaching. We were texting and I just felt really horny. So, letting my horny self guide me, I decided to ask him if he would be down to have sex some day. And since the exams were about two weeks away, we would have time after the exams to have sex.

He said yes, unsurprisingly, and then, the day arrived.

I’ll be honest. I’m not one to really like planned sex. I feel like you should have sex when you feel like it in the moment, not on a scheduled day. And so, having chosen a specific day to have sex wasn’t really... exciting.

We were on our way to his house and I could feel my heart racing as I thought about the things we could do. I knew that porn wasn’t really what sex was like, but that was like the only source I had. We arrived at his house at around noon and we went to a guest bedroom. It felt so planned that I just wasn’t feeling turned on. We started kissing and getting undressed and I would have loved it if he would have focused on foreplay a bit more, but I guess that’s just what happens when it’s both your first times. It was so quiet I could hear cars outside. I was lying on the bed, we were both naked and he just got up to get a condom, leaving me alone in that room. And all I could do was think.

And I’m sorry but I don’t think you should leave a stressed out girl alone in a room, especially when she’s about to lose her virginity, because that just forces her to think about what she’s doing and if it’s a mistake.

Fortunately for him, I didn’t back down, I just felt like it was a bitchy ass move to do. And he was my friend.

So he came back with his condom, put it on and finally it happened. Girls, can I just tell you that iT FuCkiNg HurTeD aS HeLL! I’m sure some of you had amazing first times but I’m pretty sure most of the time I was just thinking about when the pain was going to leave. I mean, the pain wasn’t so bad that I wanted to just stop, it was just that now all my attention was focused on my vagina being like “why are you doing this to meee?”

I told myself it might stop, that at one point I’d start feeling pleasure, but no.

I don’t even know how long it lasted, but all I know is that I was just waiting for him to cum and be done with it.

At one point, he did try to give me oral, but that didn’t work well haha. He couldn’t find my clit and I was to shy to say anything.

Also, none of us ended up having an orgasm (I wasn’t even close) and so when he asked me if I was finished, I vaguely answered yes and he asked me to give him head. I didn’t refuse, because I wanted to try. But even that didn’t help him finish, his dick just kept getting softer and he ended up telling me “his dick didn’t “work” for some reason” and left the room.

All that to say that, my first time just wasn’t what I expected at all. And I can honestly say that my hands do a way better job at it.