Scared to take a test

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When I was 17 I had a surgery on my ovaries and was told there was a less than 50% chance that I would have a successful pregnancy. Today I am 26 and I am 4 days late of my period I'm terrified to take a test because I dont want to get excited and my pregnancy not me successful. I'm praying every day that AF shows . But then again all I've been wanting for years is a bundle of joy I'm soo confused and conflicted 😞😞😔😔😔