Venting (super long, so sorry)

I really just needed to write this down so I could get it out and try to stop stressing. My husband is an officer in the Navy and I am no longer working. I worked for a call center but quit due to high stresses and being moved to a new team/job without any say. Anyways. I haven’t worked for 3 months and I’ve been looking for work off and on. I wanted something that was part time, not too crazy and where I don’t have to be on my feet.

Recently it seems like things have been so tight. I blame myself for just quitting and then still taking classes. I guess I just didn’t realize how tight it would be. My husband goes out on the road every other month and is usually gone for that whole month. And he needs some money to use while he’s out and then I need money for myself for like groceries and gas and our pets (food, litter, appts). All of our savings is practically gone. I handle finances so I’m feeling like he’s not understanding how tight it is and he gives his cousin like $20 to $30 it seems like every other week. Or his sister money.

Anyways fast forward to today, he texts me this morning and says his oldest sister needs like $1096 for their power bill that was shut off. She was hurt on the job so she’s only getting 30% of her checks and then her husband gets a disability check I think. They have like 6 of them living in the house with her 3 kids, two still in high school and one who just lost his job and then her mentally challenged brother in law. He’s asking me is there anything we can do for her. We have like $80 to last til next week. So I tell him that we don’t have it and then he later ask me how about his next paycheck. He has to go out of state for a swimming test right after he gets home and needs money for that plus again I’ll need something. I’m just like we won’t have anything. I just don’t know how to make him understand how tight it is. He is the most giving person and ppl are always asking him for money. Am I being dramatic? I am looking for work. I’ve had two interviews last week but I haven’t heard anything yet and I just don’t know who will hire me being 29 weeks pregnant. Sooo sorry for the long post.