Membranes sweep and scared.

So I’m having my membrane sweep today because I’m 9 days over due. I don’t want to be induced with pitocin so we’re trying this. I have been waiting for the day to meet my baby and not be pregnant because I am absolutely exhausted and I can’t do it anymore. But I’m scared to deliver again. My last delivery went fine but it was super painful as expected. I’m sitting here bawling cause I’m scared something will go wrong and don’t feel like I’m ready. Should I turn down the membrane sweep? I’m just so stressed with pregnancy and everything else going on. I don’t know what to do.