Wtffffff 🙄🤧🤬😭😶🤯 rant

Mannnnnn.... I’m in such a dark place idk wtf to do. Like I’m sooooo tired of being sick in the mornings, tired of being tired, tired of crying, tired of not gaf. Im tired of not being able to eat. I’ve lost 56 pounds in 5 months. I started smoking weed to eat and function because i would have anxiety attacks all day. Now it doesn’t help me eat anymore. I wanna quit but i can’t get through the day normally with out it 😭. I’m tired of living BUT I DONT WANAN DIE. i just wanna feelll HAPPY AGAIN I WANNA FEEL AGAIN. HOWWWWW??? WHERE SO I STARTTTTT.