Becoming a preemie Mom

Sorry kinda a long post. Well it's never how you expected it to happen or have planned but our little girl Brooke was born September 10th at 35w6d. So many emotions happen all at once your shocked that it's happening happy and excited to see your baby worried that it's too early! I woke up at 2am Sunday night to a huge gush of wetness which once getting to the bathroom revealed to be a blood bath! I calmly called for my husband to bring me my phone to call the on call doctor. They instructed me to come into the hospital to be checked out. Once there they did a test and confirmed the first layer of my water had broke. They gave me a shot in the butt to help develop her lungs (said I would get another in 24 hours) no more than 15 min later they came back and said we were doing a C-section in 30 min!! Brooke was breach and I was having contractions about ever 5 min, when the dr checked my cervix I was already 6cm dilated! We were having our little girl. It was terrifying but when she came out and I heard her cry it was beautiful. Right now she has been moved out of the incubator and is holding her temp on her own! We're working on getting her to up feeding on her own which is going to be her biggest hurdle. She's also on a small amount of oxygen to keep her O2 levels up. We've now been here a week and each day is a wait and see what she does but we know each day we're getting closer to taking our sweet girl home! It's heart breaking to leave every night without her and has resulted in many tears! There are emotionally draining days where all you want to do is cry and then days where you're so optimistic and know this is just temporary. She's our little warrior and we know she will pull through soon! You're never prepared to be a parent but you are for sure never ready to be a NICU parent!

UPDATE

Brooke is doing better she has stated to take some of her feedings on her own, not all of them yet. She's up to 6lbs! We're so happy with they progress she has made but it's also so hard when you feel so close yet so far away... we hope with a little more rest and a few more days she'll get to come home soon!! 💕