Can't talk to my best friend
I'm pregnant again after having an ectopic rupture a couple months ago. My best friend has been going through unexplained infertility the last 17 months. I was terrified to tell her because she told me a month ago how upset she would be if I got pregnant again before they got pregnant even once (she said she would of course still be happy for me but she was being honest and I appreciated that). I have done so much research on the best ways to be there for her through her struggle and prepped myself for when I became pregnant again on how best to tell her. I knew she would have a hard time, and the first few days she was open and honest with me but told me she was very happy for us that we get to start over again, but now she isn't speaking to me at all. I'm giving her some space and am trying to be sensitive, but I'm going through a lot of anxiety and fear due to our loss and feel so alone and have no one to talk to about it and she's the one person I wish I could talk to.
My doctor called and said my first beta draw was 4,328 at 5 weeks and that was way higher than at 5 weeks with the ectopic, which was only 921 with a 96 hr doubling time. I have another blood draw tomorrow and they also told me I need to have an US too tomorrow to rule out ectopic due to my history although they said everything is looking good so far. I'm so excited but also very scared and just have no one to talk to about it. She has barely spoken to me in the last 2 days. I haven't even talked about the pregnancy since the day I told her so that I can be sensitive and be supportive of her. But I went through something so traumatic myself having gone through emergency surgery with the removal of my tube and losing a lot of blood and she knows how hard this is for me because of that and I feel no support from her. I'm trying to be understanding and I know I can't expect her to be there for me fully because of how painful this is for her right now not being able to get pregnant so I'm really trying my best not to be upset with her, but she's my person and I just wish she would talk to me even just a little bit to make sure I'm okay and be even a little bit supportive. I just feel alone.
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