Nothing important but my mind has been running like crazy and I needed to get it off my chest

So over the years with 5 knee surgeries I got fat. I'm okay with it. I've been trying to change my lifestyle but with work it's hard. I'm a restaurant manager and the food isn't always healthily and with money and time being tight. It's easier to eat at work than pack a lunch

I have the cysts on my ovaries and am taking meds to help me get pregnant but I'm so afraid that my weight is going to keep me from getting pregnant.

I keep reading the what to expect before expecting and it's mostly about losing weight and being healthy and I'm so discouraged.

Has anyone else felt like this?