I’m worried for myself. I’m showing symptoms of both bpd and did, but I can’t afford psychiatry or therapy so I can’t get help. I don’t remember my childhood. I remember a few terrifying things from when I was very young, and then I remember nothing up until I was 12, then I remember nothing again. I don’t remember yesterday, or if I ate dinner last night.

I’ve been switching emotions and depersonalizing so much the past year. I live disassociated every single day.

I was diagnosed with severe anxiety, social anxiety, and paranoia. But the doctor wanted me to go a psychiatrist because I showed symptoms of disorders he couldn’t diagnose, but my mom never took me.

I’m not looking for responses, I needed to vent.

(Edit: I’m showing more symptoms than the few stated. I didn’t want to go into detail.)