Should I leave him? Emotion abuse ?
So me and my boyfriend have been together for 6 years and 3 months. We have a beautiful daughter together. When we first started dating we were 16 years old . He moved far away and said he wanted to get me pregnant so we could be together forever . I got pregnant at 19 and I tell him and he isn’t happy or excited. He ignores me for a week and basically ghosts me my entire pregnancy. He didn’t care to feel her first moves . He was even late to my baby shower and everyone was wondering where the dad was it was pure embarrassment.
When my daughter was born she lived with me. I still lived at home so my mom didn’t let him move in and he didn’t have any intentions to want to move in. So as my daughter was a new born I did it all alone I had postpartum depression and cried every single day for 5 months straight . He had no interest what so ever to want to help me with my daughter all he did was give me money . I remember him sleeping over one day when she was 3 months old to help me one night . HE NEVER CAME BACK TO STAY THE NIGHT AGAIN. Because he couldn’t handle her waking up and feeding her.
Basically the arguing and fighting started as soon as I got pregnant . However once my daughter turned one he started coming over a lot more and finally “decided” to be a dad . Only because it was easier as she got older.
Rewind to 2017 he moves Into my moms house with me I guess everything was okay we had fights here and there but he ALWAYS ACCUSED ME OF CHEATING. When in reality I wasn’t . He was the one hiding his phone and passwords and being weird til this day.
We moved into our own apartment and then recently moved into a newer apartment . I’m not sure if he has this image in his head that I’m his maid. He expects the house to be spotless clean by the time he comes home . A fresh home cooked meal. Which I always do . There are a few times where I don’t because I’m simply TIRED .
I wake up at 6am dress my daughter for school then take her to school then i work 12 HOUR SHIFTS. I pay half the rent I pay my own bills and I also help with other bills .
I recently finished school and I need to get my license but I have some other priorities at the moment and I can’t pay right now and he tells me last week that when am I going to get my license because he needs someone to be at the same level as him. That if anything he doesn’t need me that he will find someone better than me that will reach his level. I cried and I cried he made me feel worthless , stupid , I wasn’t good enough. HE SHOWED NO EMOTION.
I’ve also put on some weight because of the move and him always wanting to eat out (he was really Jealous when I was thin) but he told me I need to lose weight and god that hurt me so much I am already insecure from the past because of his comments . I cried so hard I couldn’t even speak I have lack of self esteem because of his comments . And yes I know I need to lose weight but it’s how he said to me that triggered me to cry uncontrollably. How rude he was when he said it .
There’s more things that he’s said . But the other day he tells me “me and the guys from work are going to this water park and I’m going I don’t care what you have to say I’m going no matter what” okay cool go. He goes but the guys cancelled so he had to come home.
It so happens that the next week my friends invited me to go to a theme park for Halloween and he let me go which was yesterday but he had been making a scene about it saying I don’t care that I’m a cheater and blah blah blah . I came home around 1 am (those theme parks are open until 2am for Halloween and open at at 7pm) all I did was kiss him goodnight.
I have a really bad back because of my epidural so this morning at around 4 am I think I pulled my lower back and couldn’t not STAND THE PAIN I almost cried . I couldn’t get up I couldn’t move I was hunched over I couldn’t pick up anything from the floor . I took Advil and it didn’t work. I wasn’t able to do ANYTHING and I still can’t . I text him saying hey like my backs really messed up.
He comes home ANGRY , PISSED , FURIOUS . You name it. I was like hey what’s going on? YOU ! He tells me. He says before I used to come home to meal and I see u sleeping !! all I say is really ? The meals I give u every week ? U chose to be mad are u serious ?! I cook for you every week when and if I can when I’m not working . I have a bad back give me a break. I ask him why do u chose to be mad ? Why??!!! U literally choose to be mad I don’t get it I’m not going to live my life like this forever . He tells me “now it all makes sense u can fucking leave if you want” and I just start crying . I don’t get it I don’t understand .
He ignores me most days because he’s on his phone after work . He doesn’t clean he doesn’t cook all he does is take out the trash and I never complain. He never gives me sex either it’s been 5 days and if I ask he says no but if he wants sex I have to say yes or he makes a scene. He also tells me that I never look good for him and the times I’ve actually tried he doesn’t even care all he says is thanks and I feel so dumb like why do I try. The only thing I do which is probably wrong is cuss him out when he treats me like such a piece of shit . There’s so many things that he has done to me but this post will turn into a book.
Is this emotional abuse ? Verbal abuse ? Do I leave him I’m so tired of this idk what to do 😔 I do love him but I think I deserve to be treated better ...
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