I had a drs appointment today. I haven't really felt like I was pregnant. Mommy instincts I guess. They did an ultrasound cause I had some moderate vaginal bleeding. The tech never said a word. She said she was measuring anything. I haven't been able to find my babies heart beat on my at home Doppler. And there was no heartbeat. No heart beat. I have never felt a pain like this in my life losing my own child. I wanted to go back go back to the day the babies heart had stopped beating. I don't even know what to feel. I feel empty inside my mind is very very blank. I praise all the women that have gone through this and was strong enough to keep going. I don't even know how I'm going to keep going. You women are courageous.