Back in July, I started getting sick and not feeling good. Go an entire month I was feeling this way. 5 months prior I was diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and Severe Anxiety Disorder and we started medication to help. When I started not feeling well, I just assumed it was because of the medication. At the beginning of August, I was home alone and passed out and busted my head and nose open. I called my husband and we went to the ER and got testing. The testing showed abnormalities in my heart rhythm. Thy sent us home and told me to relax and follow up with my primary. Two days later, I thought I was having a heart attack, so we ended back up at the hospital. With further testing we found out that I have a Pulmonary Embolism. A PE is a blood clot in the pulmonary artery in your lung, which is obviously not good. They begin telling us how lucky we are and that people with PE’s usually die within the first hour. They put me on blood thinners and sent me on my way. Fast forward 2 months later, I’m in more pain, developed more PE’s and was recently just diagnosed with SVT (Supraventricular tachycardia) which is a faster than normal heart rate beginning above the heart's two lower chambers. And possibly Figbermialgya. I’m 25, and my husband and I haven’t even been married a year yet!! When people say “the first year is the hardest” I never thought that it would be because of health reasons. My husband works for a Christian Radio Station as the morning show host and I was a Childrens Ministry Director. Ever since being sick, I’ve had to give up my job, working out and all the activities I enjoy. We’re learning what the “new normal” looks like and some days we can’t help but be angry with God. There are many days where I look at my husband, with tear filled eyes and say “God hates me.” We don’t have any family that lives close to us, so we’re alone in this and no one in our church has reached out to us. Which I think has hurt the most I worked there, we were so involved and as soon as I got sick our church family, and friends have distanced themself from us. It’s hard to fight an illness and push through when you don’t have a support system 😭😔