Sad as fuck

So i actually go after a girl. They usually come my way and i dont have to put in any effort. but I deside to go after someone. Thinking that i will be happy and its a good thing. But then I I catch feelings for my color guard instructor(also a student). Before We talked for a long time and we get real personal. I never let my self catch feelings but I let my guard down for her. But then Her vibes & attitude changed. We hung out less and now she hasnt texted me back since yesterday morning. My heart fucking hurts man. This is why I always keep my guard up. All she did is show me why I have to keep it up. Fuck this. We used to stay on phone calls and talk about everything. Stay up late talking and everything. I treated her like a queen. We had cute ass nicknames and everything. Fuckkk

:'( >_

I'm fucking done.