I have always struggled to have a positive self image and had some depression from some trauma and other life events that have caused unnecessary stress and anxiety but I’ve always been very good at finding a positive and finding ways to keep going and stay happy and upbeat...

But lately I’ve been really struggling especially while my body has been changing and I’ve been in pain and had extra emotional instability. It seems like I wake up and I just want to break apart. I want to curl into a ball.

I go to school three full days a week 9-6 and in the other four days of the week I manage to work 40 hours as a manager at a sandwich shop. I just moved away from my family for the first time. I am 17 weeks pregnant. Have medical bills and some relationship stress. And normally I’d be able to juggle things and even excel at my work but I have been getting invasive and suicidal thoughts. I have been feeling depressed for no reason. Someone could say the wrong thing and I’ll cry so hard I can’t breathe and this is HIGHLY out of character for me.

I have called my doctor. I am looking into some therapy and or help in the professional area but I would love to know if anyone has little ways they make do or cope with these feelings and how they get through the day.. I have not quit eating or treating myself good because I still very much love my baby and want to take care of them but I myself do not feel an ounce of motivation or happiness other than knowing I’m gonna be a mom... I just need help