Today I survived a chemical pregnancy. Although survived is not a word I really want to use since it literally feels like I’m dying inside. I’m only writing because I’m hoping to feel some relief. I’m devastated and the tears will not stop. All week I’ve seen 2 lines and all week I’ve been overjoyed. But this morning, I saw nothing. Wishing I hadn’t told my husband we were expecting. Wishing I kept it to myself. Every where I turn, I see a belly. And no matter how hard I try, it’s not my reality!!! Chemical pregnancy is a MISCARRIAGE! You’ve lost a baby and it’s ok to be pissed or upset or depressed. Don’t let anyone tell you that you aren’t suppose to hurt. Everyone says it’ll be alright. But you don’t have to believe it right away. I don’t feel like it’ll be alright. A baby that me and my husband tried so hard to conceive, was in fact conceived but did not survive! You see now why the word survive sucks? Im scared to try again. This is my second chemical pregnancy in 3 months. Smh.... This hurts! This really hurts!!!