Orgasm

I’ve always believed Marriage before sex, was RAPED by unknown man and have only had sex with the Man I’m MARRIED to!! My hang up is personal, I CANNOT bring myself to ORGASM? I get right to point of orgasm quickly, Thanks to my Hubby, but just before I feel I would orgasm I push him away and don’t allow him to even touch me. I don’t know what my problem is and was hoping someone could help me figure out What my Problem Is?