Today is the day that I take my life back, I gain my freedom, and drop a ton of baggage at the door. I have fought and held on to a failing relationship for too long. I have ruined my self in the midst of thinking I was trying to help someone else. I didn't want to be just another person giving up on him because he has a problem.. but it's killing me. I don't know who I am anymore. I love him and I always will there's no doing about that. He will always have a piece of my heart. But he will never be able to keep it together. All the words and lies breaking it over and over again. All the desperation on my part to keep things glued together. It's not fair. Life takes things and you only get what you put in... And his choices are now hindering what I can out into this life for me and my son. And that's not love. I see that now. He will always be my handsome and he will always have a part of me that no one else will have the chance to see. For he got the best of me... But it's now my time to get up and get my life back on track and be who I know I can be.. not for me but for my beautiful smart instinctively loving son... I know he won't understand anything but mommy took me from daddy.. but one day. He will look back and thank me.. because his life is only going to get better from here... It may be a long road ahead of us. But if I can make it threw what I've been threw and still manage a smile every now and then I can make it threw this. My heart is already broken and my mind is on the fence. But this is the right thing to do. Now I just need to prove it to my self that I don't need anyone to be happy with myself