I died and I can’t hide it...

Moms I have always struggled with anxiety and depression and right now it is worse then ever. I have had so much going on and my pregnancy was stressful. I know I have post partum depression bit unlike my depression used to be I get out of bed and I do what needs to be done. I enjoy going places and doing things and taking care of myself. However lately my depression is coming out in anger. Have any of you guys dealt with this. Please help. Since my baby has been born I feel like when he was born I lost myself a part of me died. I can’t hide the fact that the old me has died. I have been called hateful by more people then I can count because of things I have said and fights that I have picked. It’s amazing my significant other is even with me still. He has been so gracious in putting up with me. I’m worse then I have ever been and it sucks. I want the old happy me back!!! Where did she go? I feel like I’m a completely different person in a body I don’t even recognize. I’m trying to eat better and even go to the gym to help myself feel better. I’m looking into counseling tomorrrow because I can’t keep hurting the people I love. I am always so alone and isolated so to where I live and the fact that I can’t drive and the only friends I have are from college and they live in different states. Anyone else go through this??