(Please don’t respond if you are going to say hurtful things)

So I’m 34 weeks pregnant and I went to bed before my husband did tonight cause it has been a long day.

One one of my 5 nightly trips to the bathroom, probably about 2 hours after I got into bed, I noticed the living room tv on cause the light was shining through the bottom of the door.

It’s not an unusual occurrence that he will stay up and watch tv on the couch sometimes, and I usually go out and turn the tv off cause he has fallen asleep.

So tonight I just went to the bathroom and thought I was going to turn the tv off cause he had fallen asleep, but when I opened the door and usually I do it quietly, he was still up. He was caught off guard and rustled around to cover himself up.

I knew very well what he was doing... and sat next to him and he was like sorry sorry sorry babe.

I lifted the blanket and saw he had a full on boner!

So I was like babe I’m not mad, I’m definitely not mad, stop apologizing.

The thing that bothered me was that I asked him what he was looking at and to show me what it was that he was jerking off to, but he wouldn’t show me.

Im like babe stop apologizing, I’m 34 weeks pregnant, I understand.

I’m horny all the time but he never seems to want sex from me.

I am a very very sexual person and I want to feel loved, be loved on all the time by him, but our desires are so different from one another. Even before I was pregnant, I’m always the one wanting it, wanting to be loved on every day, multiple times a day.. someone to come up and grab me by the boobs, grab my ass, take me anywhere etc.

The fact that he didn’t show me, and made such a big deal as to say “I don’t understand why you need to see it”, “no”, “I’m sorry”, “I never do this”, that just erks me.

I’m okay with him doing it as I find myself sometimes having to take care of myself and sometimes if he’s not there, and I’ll tell him I did. It doesn’t seem to faze him.

I then go back to the bedroom cause I didn’t like how he was reacting, but then 5 mins later I came back out to tell him I’m sad that we couldn’t talk about it - and that he was reacting that way.

He’s like I don’t get it, why does it matter?

I’m like cause it would help us be closer.

He’s like it’s really unfortunate that we can’t talk about it, you know if we were more intimate, it wouldn’t be so uncomfortable to talk about...

That comment of his made me frustrated and I went back to bed and am now writing this perplexed as to why he made a big deal about sharing what he was watching on his phone.

I have on many occasions especially in the mornings wanted to take care of my man as usually that’s when I have the most energy, not at midnight after a long exhausting day, but he always turns me down and says babe I’m trying to sleep... or he’s up and off to work before I get up and even start thinking about being sexual or sexy!!!

He plays tennis a few nights a week, and I’m usually there watching him, or he surfs, and he’s off work before me a lot... he does a lot of stuff by himself, so it’s not like we are together 24/7, we have our space....

I wish he was more sexual, I feel that’s the one piece that I dislike about our relationship - but he acts like it’s not a big deal to my face, but when we argue, he brings it up - I don’t get it...

He has been absolutely amazing during this pregnancy, I just wish he could be open to me about stuff like that... and not make it soooo awkward...

let me see what you like, let me see what turns you on when I’m not around...

I know when I get up in the morning I’m going to be still probably bitter about his reaction to it all last night... and I wear my emotions on my face and I’ll probably ignore him so that he knows it hurt me that he reacted that way.. but is that really the way to handle it... ???

I want someone to be as crazy sexual as I know I am... and not feel uncomfortable talking about it...

I’m even like babe, I’ll watch porn with you... hey I’ll have a threesome if you want... just tell me... be open and honest with me..

Signed ~

perplexed, confused, frustrated, upset - and now horny!!!