Anybody else?

I am not on birth control and he pulls out every time. If we get pregnant than we will be happy but we’re at a point where things are good but could be better in our living situation. We’re not actively trying but of course not making full force effort to not conceive.

My issue is I want to start our family. I want to be pregnant. And as much as I try to tell myself “it will happen when it’s time”. I keep wondering “what if there was a slip up this month”. My baby fever is sooo high I cant get rid of it. And once I stop thinking about it, i of course have a dream about it. Does anyone else feel the same? If so how do you stay patient or cope with the intense baby fever?