Pregnant with cervical cancer

Sorry for the long post!

Today I’m 10 weeks and 3 days, and going through a little bit of a tough time. I’ve seen my baby three times through ultrasounds and he/she has looked perfect every time. Growing on schedule, and has a perfect little heartbeat. He/she was even doing a little dance at the last ultrasound. However, after my pap results came back from my first prenatal appointment at 6 weeks, and it showed severe high grade precancerous cells, and my OBGYN scheduled me to meet with an Oncologist. After having a colposcopy with the oncologist, the biopsy came back confirming I have invasive cervical cancer. He says it’s early, but if something isn’t done it may get more advanced and cause bigger issues. He recommended that I have a cervical conization which would involve him to take little bit of my cervix where the cancer is to prevent it from spreading. This however comes with risks including miscarriage, preterm labor, etc... I have already had a LEEP about 10 years ago which also took a little bit from my cervix, so I’m scared that this will make my cervix too weak to carry my baby or any future children. I have the option to have the conization now, or wait until 6 weeks after I deliver to perform the procedure. Waiting also increases the risks of the cancer developing even more and possibly having to take more drastic approaches after the pregnancy, including a hysterectomy. All I want to do is protect my baby and do whatever I can to prevent anything bad from happening to him/her, but another part of me knows that I’m also risking the cancer spreading and not be able to be a part of my baby’s life. I know that may sound a little dramatic, but the doctor brought it up as a possible situation and it’s been driving me crazy. I’m supposed to have my decision by tomorrow, but I’m still torn on what I should do. I want nothing more than to have my baby, but I don’t want to have cancer that will prevent me from taking care of him/her. I don’t know what to do 😭😭😭