Maybe it’s not meant to be

Warning.. rant ahead...

I just don't feel like we are meant to have a second. January will be a year of trying (that's another story...). In August we had a chemical pregnancy. We time everything right. Do everything the "experts" say. We have tried preseed, different vitamins... I am even so desperate I am now using Geritrol.

I am due to ovulate this weekend. Still no smiley face so I hope we still have time to get some much needed "alone time" in. We DTD on Thursday. Yesterday my husband wasn't in the mood. Today, he finished before we even started 😥At the end of November I am having a procedure done to freeze some abnormal cells on my cervix and will be out of commission sex wise for up to 3 weeks. It all feels so hopeless. I am ready to say I give up and ok being "one and done"....