I’m going thru a miscarriage after 7 months of TTC.. my SO and I are dealing with the pain in different ways.. way different

My grandma keeps saying “you can try again” like it’s just a “thing” I lost or failed at..

I want to “try again” but the pain of trying and the happiness of seeing the two lines only to have the baby die.... this pain so much, too much...

why is this happening, what did I do? I feel like my man is going to leave, two losses in one Yr.. after 4 healthy previous pregnancies, what’s going on