I don’t know what to do. I’m afraid and embarrassed. And I’m hurting. There was a new boy at work who came from Saudi Arabia and was trying to learn English. I thought he was nice. He told me he just wanted to talk and learn English. I have a boyfriend. He knew that. I love my boyfriend. I’ve been with him for 3 years. But it’s my first year in college away from him and I miss him. I’m only 18.

The new boy (Ali) wanted to go out and talk on Friday night I thought he was trying to learn English. I thought he just wanted a friend.

He said we will go out for coffee and dinner. He’s 22 so he said he’d buy me a drink. I thought “why not, I’m in college. I’m safe with him. He’s a friend”

We went out for dinner and coffee and then we got on a bus and went to his house I figured he was cold and wanted to get a jacket. It’s November and he wasn’t wearing anything other than jeans and a long sleeve shirt. He took me upstairs to his room and I instantly felt afraid. He closed the door and he liked it. I didn’t sit down on his bed I unlocked my pepper spray. I kept my shoes on and I kept my phone in my hand. But he sat me on his bed. He told me to take off my shoes. And he tried to take my phone from me. I suggested we watch a movie, trying to keep it light. I didn’t know what to do. He grabbed my neck and pulled my towards him. I pushed him away but he was so strong. He hurt my neck. I said no. I said I didn’t want to. I told him I have a boyfriend. I bent down to put my shoes on. He cane over and shoved his crotch in my face. He grabbed my head and I pulled away. I fell back and saw he was between me and the door. I didn’t know how to get out. I didn’t know what to do. I turned around and finished putting my shoes on. He grabbed me again and I kept saying no I don’t want to and he kept saying please please. He tried to kiss me and touch me but I kept saying no. I kept pushing him away. I told him to unlock the door and let me go home. I told him I wanted to go home. He kept saying no please stay. He said you stay and please me and I buy you drink. I said no. I was there for what felt like another 30 minutes trying to get out of that house. I ran downstairs and called an Uber but he insisted on waiting outside with me. I shook so hard but I wasn’t even cold. I could barely hold my phone because I could not keep my hands steady. I was so afraid. I got away and now I don’t know what to do. I work with him. I have to see him again. What do I do? I need the work. I ant pay for college on my own. I need this job. What do I do?