Finding Love

I've only ever been in one relationship before. The guy was nice and we both played D&D together and he was really funny, but we broke up after about 7 months. It's been 2 years since we started dating and something about the relationship left a weird feeling in my gut. I've realized recently that he had emotionally and sexually abused me the entire time (and even after the relationship) and I just always blamed myself for it. I've fallen back into depression because of it and just feel as though I'll never find love. I want someone who doesn't just care about the sex and won't force me into things that I openly said "no" to. I want someone funny and sweet who's adventurous and mischievous and dorky. I feel like I'll never find that. I know loving yourself is step 1 to finding love, but where do you go from there? I don't exactly know what I'll wind up wanting in life, but I'm pretty sure I don't want kids in the future and I also have a very low sex drive and my ex made me feel as though there isn't a single person in the world who would want someone like me. How do you find love? Where do you look?