14 but looks, and acts 18

I know i might be making a problem out of nothing but I’m 14 and I have a constant problem with making friends my age because of how immature most 14 year olds are. I’m not trying to be rude and I don’t want anyone to take offence to things I’m saying but I just hate how lonely I am, I don’t want to be that really young girl dating an older guy or being friends with people much older than me because I feel like that’s weird. I always try starting conversations with people my age but they immediately shut it down or change the topic because my subject doesn’t interest young minds.

Because of my maturity levels I am always rushing things. I am desperate for a career which most teens would hate having.

I have no idea if this has something to do with me being mature or I’m just a hoe but recently I’ve been wanting a relationship. Not just a high school thing but a real relationship. I don’t even know anymore.