When my husband and I started the process of TTC back in April, I never knew how much I would want this. I never knew how heartbreaking it would be every month to have my period show up. I never knew I would get my hopes up after being late but still having negative tests only to have them crushed. I never knew how hard it would be to be to not see my husband go through the same pain or not express his frustrations the same as me. I never knew how scary it would be to think that something may be wrong with one if us. I never knew how many times I would question if I am undeserving of a child.