So I got out of a relationship at the beginning of this year to a guy I was almost 4 years with. I thought he was my everything, and I thought we’d end up together. After we broke up I was devastated, but I was able to remember all the times I felt in my gut he wasn’t right for me and I was able to pull myself out of the sadness. I went on a date with a cute guy and we ended up seeing each other for a while. People told me it was too early, but I think I was just so excited at the thought of me being able to meet new people I couldn’t help myself. He was perfect on paper, we were so alike, but I never felt a loving connection. Of course we got along and I knew we cared about each other but after the initial excitement of being with someone else wore off I started to see things about him I didn’t like.

He had different views than me, he wasn’t the affectionate type, and we didn’t want the same things in life. I felt myself try to force love but it never came and I eventually started seeing my best guy friend and someone I could be with.

My best guy friend and I had been friends for more than 4 years now, and I would tell him how unhappy I was with my boyfriend. I decided to break up with him so I can be single and low key I wanted to see where it goes with my friend. Turns out he did have feelings for me and I feel like I finally found a guy who likes me for me, and I don’t feel like I ever have to change for. Everyone is telling me i jump into things but I feel like it’s different with my friend because we already know eachother and what we want out of life. I feel like this could be a beautiful relationship, but I also have worries because I thought that about my last boyfriend too. I want this so bad, but I also want to make sure I’m ready too.