I dont know what to do

so today I found out i have pcos. and when I got out of the appt I told my boyfriend be we where trying and now we know why it's been so hard well my doctor said that I could take some medicine that should help me well now he doesn't want me to and he is saying maybe we can adopt one day or something well I get other kids need a home but I want my own baby and now he is saying I could die while giving birth and I think there is a chance for everyone to. but I am willing to take that chance so I'm not sure what to do anymore