boys fucking suck

have i got some tea to spill girlssss

now this is a long one, y’all know i’m gonna literally spill all the contents of my heart rn, because its literally broken.

so, to give a little background, i have been talking to this guy for a few weeks now. we met about a year ago and started talking again, we’ve been flirting and such, he fingered me, ya know, all that stuff. we weren’t officially bf and gf but like, we might as well have been.

cut to yesterday. there was a school dance at my high school (he goes to a different one), and he wanted to go with me but i couldn’t go. he told me that he was still gonna go with his cousin (a boy, who i’m friends with) and i was like kinda jealous but obviously wasn’t gonna admit it. he told me after the dance how shitty it was because i wasn’t there and i was all like awe ily and we flirted til i fell asleep (he was saying some weird shit, like sexual shit which we usually don’t talk about over text but he might’ve been drunk idk).

today, my friend (who didn’t go to the dance) was acting all weird before 2nd period and i was like ?? and she was like “i heard something” and i was like ?? she was like (*his cousin* said that you and *this guy* weren’t a thing anymore and i was like ?? and she was like “yeah apparently he’s trying to get with *a girl, we’ll call her betty* now” and i was like ?😡? then we had to go to class so i didn’t hear the whole story. i was pissed but *his cousin* always makes shit up so i wasn’t gonna get too worked up about it.

in 3rd period, he messaged me and was all like “hey i got a picture with this girl at the dance and everyone wants to post it with a cheesy caption but i don’t want you to get mad” so i was like “well what’s the picture” and he sent it and it was a picture of him and *betty* getting WAY too close together and i was actually pissed. i just said “oh” and he’s all like “she means nothing to me i promise” and i was all like “mhm” and stopped texting him because i was in class.

at lunch, i heard tons of stories about how him and *betty* were like grinding in each other and shit at the dance and i was like ?😡? but didn’t do anything about it.

in 5th period, my friend was on ig and saw the picture he sent me with the caption “a below average dance with an above average girl” and i was fucking mad at this point. like i didn’t think he was gonna post it. so they were telling me to leave his ass and i was all like omg butttt and they’re like no wtf leave him.

i got home and sent him the picture saying “she looks a lot more than just nothing to you” at this point i was literally bawling. anyway he goes to tell me all this bs and is all like “omg no” and i’m all like “i don’t believe you” and then my friend messages me this:

so i sent that to him and was all like “this is why idk if i can believe you” and HE LITERALLY FUCKING SAID “a) i’m gonna block her and b) i’m gonna ask you to stop talking to me because i’m done with all this bs and stress” so i started absolutely sobbing and left his ass on read. like that literally made me feel like complete shit.

so like half an hour later i had finally stopped crying and i was all like “k you know what? i’m a bad ass bitch and i’m gonna be fucking happy that his name isn’t gonna be on my phone ever again because he’s literally fucking dumb.” then guess who’s name popped up on my phone? you guessed it! his! fucking! name! in! my! notifications! i was literally pissed. like i was fucking livid. i started crying again. i opened the message. i literally said “Look I’m sorry” YALL KNOW I BAWLED MY EYES OUT. i literally just replied with “...” and he was like “...” and i left him on read then he’s like “talk to me” and i’m like “idk what to say” then we just like sent sad faces and shit because we literally didn’t know what to do. then we just sent pictures of our foreheads back and forth on snap because we and no idea wtf to do. my friend is pissed that i’m talking to him still. i’m pissed. idk what to do. i like him too fucking much to drop his ass but there’s so many reasons to do it. help.

also i was supposed to go to his house tomorrow but guess who’s just gonna get hammered at another guys party? 🙋🏻‍♀️🙋🏻‍♀️

tl;dr

i caught hella feelings for this kid and then he went and lowkey cheated (but like we weren’t official, we might as well have been though) and i know i should drop his ass but i literally can’t like wtf