I already knew...


I have been concerned about this pregnancy from the start. I didn’t know I was pregnant which is unusual for me! I always plan and know. Well on Monday my HCH was 3900. Within range but low for what my pregnancies usually do and I had very few symptoms. I just felt like this wasn’t going to last. Went for blood today and it was 3700. Dr said come back Friday. I have no signs of miscarriage but possible signs of ectopic.

Tonight I’m sad! I get to the point when I’m okay but then I’m not. I know this is all part of the path I’m on and there is a plan for me! I’m just hurting and I’m usually okay with death/loss of any sort. I’m a funeral director and embalmer. I’m around death all the time, all ages and stages. I don’t know if I’m more disappointed in the loss, the way I’m handling this, or a little or both.