Is he bored?
I know it’s a bit long, but I genuinely don’t know what to do anymore. I started taking a new anti-depressant so it’s making all this even worse. My boyfriend and I have been dating for just about a year. I’m 8 months pregnant and high risk due to 2 broken ribs, and a bunch of infections. I’m only able to really have sex once a day and sometimes even that hurts. I’ve been trying to still give him something at least once a day but I feel like he doesn’t think that’s enough. He forgot his phone yesterday and told me I could use it if I needed it, as my phone didn’t have service. Well I open up his browser and it’s filled with porn. He spends an hour in the bathroom before he showers and I’m assuming that’s what he’s doing. Now I don’t really care about the porn, I just wish he was honest with me. Now as I was going to look up how to get to a mall to go buy him a sweater he’s really been wanting there’s 4 notifications that pop up from Instagram about these cam girls and suicide girls who are starting live videos. On top of that here comes a notification from Snapchat saying some “Sandies Panties” finally updated their story. He’s subscribed to a porn page on Snapchat too... I feel completely disgusted with my body and now I can’t help but compare myself to all these girls he’s following. I brought up the porn and Instagram girls to him when he got home and he blows up, gets out of the car and starts walking away. Yelling that I made his day worse because I had a false alarm. How he only follows those girls because they smoke weed/make glass. I don’t know if I should blame myself for being overly dramatic or what. I’ve done everything for this man. I give him my all and I can’t help but feel like I don’t provide enough. Is there something wrong with me?
Achieve your health goals from period to parenting.