Angry mom

I really would appreciate some advice.

I’ve suffered with depression since I was 18. That’s when I had my first baby. I’m 25 now. I’ve got 2 children, married and not working. I’ve not got many friends, and the ones I do, all work and have their own lives.

Being in the house, with 2 children, who don’t get along, nearly all day, everyday .... has taken its toll on my mental health.

I also suffer from anxiety. My deprwssion has seemed to have subsided for now but my anxiety is still here.

Anyway, when I was depressed, my kids voices used to agitated every time. I used to not want to be around them and would go upstairs and lie in bed just so I didn’t have to pretend to be happy.

Even though my depression has improved, my attitude towards my kids haven’t. I have improved in some ways but I can’t take a joke, I take everything seriously and their voices still annoy me. I tell them off way more than I should be doing and I’m filled with guilt every night. They are very argumentative though & they torment each other. That drives me mad.

I’m asking for advice on how to stop expressing my anger. What can I do to stop acting out? It’s affecting my children. I can tell. Especially my son. He’s not as confident as he used to be and tbh I’m no better than a bully in my opinion.

Has anyone else been there? I don’t need anyone to tell their stories if you don’t want to, just the advice but stories welcome. No judgments please.