Yesterday af showed up and it marked the 12th unsuccessful cycle. It’s been a whole year 😭 It’s starting to feel like it’s not going to happen. Everyone is getting pregnant around me and telling me just give it time and stop trying so hard. That’s a lot easier said than done. For the past four cycles I’ve just told myself what day i was supposed to start and just expect it to happen. It’s been making it a little easier on the first day. I don’t break down in the bathroom starring and my underwear wondering why my body won’t do what it’s supposed to do. I quit buying pregnancy tests because I was so tired of testing, seeing the negative, coming back an hour later to see if maybe I missed something, pulling the test apart and being discouraged all over again. I have a whole package of ovulation tests that I’ve convinced myself to stop using because all I was doing was wasting them. Even if I did bd on the day I ovulate it’s not gonna turn into a baby. I’m just so tired.