PMDD Might Be Killing My Chance at Love

Hannah

Hello ladies, I need some advice. It’s come to my attention recently that I might have PMDD. I already was diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder and major depression, but I just never noticed that it became increasingly worse just about once a month. I’m not sure how I didn’t notice that? 😫

If you look back on my life almost every month if not every couple months I would quit a job or end a relationship or cut my hair or do something drastic due to feeling very anxious and depressed right around my period. It’s almost like I become a different person and it scares me! My partner is a wonderful man and genuinely understands because he has his own mental health struggles. He’s very empathetic and supportive and we have much mutual love and respect, but I genuinely worry that I will exhaust him and myself. We’ve been together almost 6 months now and I’ve tried to break up with him twice and I’ve quit 3 jobs (all during weeks before my period). It’s scary to see that typed out honestly....

I am working on getting health insurance right now so that I can get into therapy (which I have had before and it does help) and possibly get on some anxiety medications or supplemental hormones once a month.

But as far as what I can do now, does anyone with PMDD understand what I’m going through?

And do you have any suggestions for how to deal with it?

I feel crazy and unlovable (not unloved though, my partner is good on that) and I don’t know what to do.