So I started sleeping with this guy two weeks ago.. we don’t actually have full on sex, just oral, no penetration.

Anyways, we always start by making out and when things get steamy I give him a BJ, the thing is, he only touched me once and he was doing it wrong.. like he hurt me more than pleased me.. and I was too shy to say anything.. he also never goes down on me (not even once).

But I give him BJ all the time and even more, I swallow.. which I dont really like (I HATE IT), but I cant get myself to say anything about it so he doesn’t get hurt..

And even when I look really really tired, he says that he’ll finish fast (makes him sound desperate) which pisses me off so much..

I know everyone will tell me to stop immediately which I really want to.. but I’m actually quite alone to the point that I feel like I’m doing this because I just wanna have someone with me..

The guy is a sweetheart to hangout with, but when it comes to these things I dislike him but can’t get myself to say anything..

I really need some advices please help!! 😫😫