Not ok 😔

This whole week I have been feeling off and today it hit me hard ttc has made me feel ugly inside and out. I wanted change so I dyed my hair the hairdresser messed me up cut it so short I cant put it up I told her low light through my brown hair an left with ash gray white color which will fade Platinum blonde ugh I hate it. And i was looking back at old pictures (3 years back) and compared myself to the old me and I have gained about 60lbs! I hate my body I just want to sleep all day...