So I believe I have an eating disorder but I’m not 100% and I’m kind of in denial . Everyone’s worried about me and my weight but I don’t see it . I still see myself as chubby when this is the smallest I’ve been since I was 8 years old . I’m 104 lbs 5’2 and I was 135 all of high school. I recently had a baby and it made me feel like shit mentally and emotionally. I’ve been forgetting to eat and I breastfeed which kills a ton of calories everyday. What can I do to help myself gain “healthy” weight . But not get fat. I just don’t like to eat because it makes the numbers on the scale go up .

I see rolls in my uniform but others dont

I truly didn’t see myself how everyone else sees me until a few minutes ago which is why I’m making this post